11.3.20 dump

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OKay so in Creative Writing we had an assignment where we made an A-Z list following a certain theme (tbh I think our group had the best one BHAHAH). I was reading over other groups' lists and one thing that caught my attention was "leaving friends and family" under the "After Graduation" list.

Lowkey that is one of my fears at the moment as the thought of college looms near. I just really really really don't want to grow up. I've been feeling more pressured lately because I got a debit cardddd and I have to get my license soon (even though I don't want to driveeeee) and college appsssss and just aghhhhhh. Fear man, fear.

Under the "Coronavirus" list, someone wrote "districtions;" bruh I have literally been working on 1000 different things during classes and when I do homework. I get distracted more than I used to because all my work is on the computer, and all I need to do is switch a tab or just do my work when teachers get off topic. I mean it feels efficient but it's been becoming an issue because I get super overwhelmed sometimes and then I get paranoid for no reason and I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO FOCUS FOR LIKE 5 SECONDS AGHAJSFDLNF BKAJDLFJSGKBJLHJKBJNV.

I really don't like the winter because I cannot, CANNOT handle the cold. I can wear like 3 THICC layers and still be freezing. My hands and feet automatically just get so cold too.

I have realized that I like editing my friends' college essays. Selfishly, I actually feel pretty good about myself when they ask me because ENGLISH IS SOMETHING I REALLY LIKE BHABAHHAHAAH.

I'm either starting to just get lazy or I'm starting to get senioritis BHABHAHAH. I've been caring less aboout things.. like usually if something is hard or frustrates me I keep at it until I figure it out but... now I just put it to the side and go back to it when I feel better (yes Taylor, this is what you SHOULD be doing anyway). I don't know, I just don't want to do more work than I have to.

I'm finally in the Kanto region in Pokemon Heart Gold guys. Shoutout to Jacob G and Justin for supporting me when I fought stupid Lance and his dragons for the 20th time.

I chose out new glasses the other day and I REALLY REALLY don't like them.... I wanted more rounder ones but there weren't any.... sigh I guess we will have to see.